100 Facts About Me (Part 2)

Here’s part two of my list with 25 more things that you might or might not want to know about me. This part includes my experiences with depression, love of comic books, a little more on epilepsy, and how I use music to stay alive.

  1. I love comic books, and always have. Part of me still wants to be Spider-Man, and I learned about punk rock and sex from reading Love and Rockets by Gilbert & Jaime Hernandez.

    Woman at microphone in punk club: "If you were really hard core, you'd have thrown a full bottle."
    (c) Jaime Hernandez, from Love and Rockets

  2. I sometimes say that comics were my first porn, because my parents were really strict about not letting me have them when I was in elementary school. They had the same forbidden lure that porn did later. In fact, when I first discovered my dad’s Playboy magazines, the thing that thrilled me was that they had comics in them.
  3. In modern superhero comics, I love Black Widow and Kamala Khan. The latter especially reminds me of what I loved in the early Spider-Man comics by Steve Ditko.
  4. I never liked sports, even though I tried to force myself. My total lack of interest in sports made me feel completely malformed as a kid.
  5. However, I will apparently take part in any sport that has a sword attached. I used to fence in high school, and in NYC, I took a class in stage fighting with samurai swords. They were both awesome.
  6. I wound up taking the fencing classes because my mother and one of my teachers thought I wasn’t getting enough exercise, so my mom demanded I choose a sport. I chose fencing.
  7. My fencing classes were where I got into RPGs and learned where the local comic-book store was. In those days, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles was a gritty underground comic.

    Black and white panel of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles fighting off robots in the sewers.
    A panel from Kevin Eastman and David Laird’s early Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles comics. A lot of cross-hatching and grit in their early comics that disappeared later on.

  8. I’ve been epileptic from birth, thanks to brain damage when I didn’t start breathing right away.
  9. My seizures are pretty well under control when I take my medicine. Unfortunately, I have a bad history of not taking them.
  10. One of the most frequent causes of tension between my partner and myself is her constantly reminding me to take my medicine. Considering my history of missing doses and then seizing, it’s unfair of me to get frustrated when she asks me about it, but I do.
  11. As of this writing, I’ve been seizure-free for almost a year, which is a record I haven’t made for some time. Driving is cool.
  12. If you tell me that my seizures can be regulated with alternative methods like diet, herbs, or meditation, I will tell you to fuck the fuck off. Or I’ll just cram that bottle of organic medicine down your gullet.
  13. I also suffer from depression, although it’s also doing pretty well right now.
  14. I’ve never attempted suicide, but I’ve had lots of very specific fantasies about it. My depression in the last two years of my college years was so bad that I very specifically decided that I should never own a gun.
  15. Music is a big part of how I manage my depression; I’m constantly wearing headphones and playing loud music in order to handle the things crawling through my brain.

  16. There is no word that better describes how I feel during a major depressive episode than “crazy.” When I feel like my brain is trying to kill me, when everything inside has turned against me, it may be a mental health issue to everyone on the outside, but from the inside, it’s full-on batshit crazy. There’s no other way to say it.
  17. I have weirdly eclectic taste in music. The core is a mix of punk, 60s garage, and American roots (blues, country, etc.). However, I keep surprising people with pieces of sentimental pop or obscure pieces of weirdness.
  18. Perhaps the strangest and most disturbing piece of music in my collection is a pro-Vietnam War piece of propaganda called “The Battle Hymn of Lt. Calley,” by Terry Nelson and C Company. Lieutenant William Calley was the officer who led the 1968 My Lai Massacre, in which an estimated 350-500 men, women, and children were killed. (I have a strange fascination with propaganda.)
  19. I grew up Episcopalian. As I tell people, that’s kind of like growing up Catholic without the child-rape and less gay-bashing. See also:
    Cake or Death
  20. Despite the fact that a few douchebros have given them a bad rep, I love Fedora hats. Not so much Trilbys, but the ones with large brims, like The Shadow would wear.

    I like to think that the Shadow would have seen the pathetic, wanna-be-evil in the hearts of the MRA crowd. (The Shadow Magazine, Jan 15, 1942)
    I like to think that the Shadow would have seen the pathetic, wanna-be-evil in the hearts of the MRA crowd. (The Shadow Magazine, Jan 15, 1942)

  21. I live in an extended family situation, which includes my disabled partner, her younger sister, the sister’s three-year-old, a friend who’s renting out the basement, and two small, yappy dogs who test my ability to say “I love dogs.” It’s amazing how quickly a house this big can fill up.
  22. I used to edit the book review section at Maximum RockNRoll, otherwise known as “the punk rock bible.”
  23. In the early 90s, I interned at a magazine called The Nose, which was an interesting mix between satire and journalism. It was edited by Jack Boulware, who now produces Litquake in San Francisco.
  24. I have a B.A. in Liberal Arts, which has been only slightly more useful in my search for employment than reiki is in treating cancer.
  25. One of the earliest writers to influence me was Harlan Ellison. In a lot of ways, I’m trying to undo his influence, especially his hostility towards being edited ever. (Good writers love good editors.) Also, I don’t want to be a total dick.


100 Facts About Me (Part 2)

7 thoughts on “100 Facts About Me (Part 2)

    1. 3.1

      I think they both appeal to a certain romantic heroism, so it’s not surprising that there’s a lot of crossover. What kind of RPGs did you (or do you) favor, if you don’t mind my asking?

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