Note: I’m sorry for having to continue to blog about this. Ignore it if you prefer my posts that aren’t about community issues. I try to keep those rare and still have a point to them beyond “they said / did a thing, here’s what I think.”
To follow up to my last post, Eshto reactivated then deactivated his Twitter, but not before quoting two of my friends-only posts on Facebook. These have been apparently been shared on a certain thread dedicated to hating on us Skepchick / FtB types on a certain forum. The sharing, including that of a post in which I mentioned that I use marijuana and Ambien, was ostensibly out of concern for Ryan Grant Long. How my personal choices represent something “cruel” I’ve said about him, I will never know.
That said, I’m going to publicly set the record straight: In my view, using legal drugs for their prescribed purpose is nothing to be ashamed of.
I live in California, a medical marijuana state. I have been a legal medical marijuana recommendation holder for several years now. One of the reasons why I have a recommendation is my insomnia. In addition, I have a prescription for generic low dosage Ambien, which also helps with the insomnia.
On Saturday night, after I got home from the art opening, I was annoyed beyond all reason and for good reason. Behaving yourself around someone who has been beyond horrible to your friends is hard work and involves suppressing a lot of impulsive reactions. My insomnia doesn’t always correspond with my mental state, but in this case, I had a lot of leftover adrenaline from what had transpired. I was wound up without outlet.
I sometimes let my insomnia do its thing and resign myself to sleeplessness, but as I had matters to tend to the next day, I decided to handle it. Ambien, more often than not, leaves me groggy, so I turned to the less potentially-harmful drug first. The effects wore off two hours later, leaving me still awake. I took my last resort, Ambien, and managed five hours of sleep, which was better than nothing.
Once more, with feeling: I do not feel ashamed that I use legal drugs for their prescribed purposes. I don’t think anyone else should have to feel that way, either. If anything, American drug laws and policies are mechanisms by which injustice is perpetuated, and I am openly pro-legalization.