"God help me, but this gets me off": Excerpt from "Bending: Dirty Kinky Stories About Pain, Power, Religion, Unicorns, & More"

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Excerpt from “Deprogramming,” one of the stories from “Bending: Dirty Kinky Stories About Pain, Power, Religion, Unicorns, & More.” Now for sale on Kindle, Nook, and Smashwords! Content note: Kinky sex, references to problematic consent or non-consent.

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“How far do you want to go this time?”

“A little farther than last time.”

“Last time we got almost to the belt. Are you sure you want to go farther? I don’t think we can go farther without getting into the belt.”

She nodded. “I know. It’s okay. I don’t want to, you know, go all the way with the belt. But I think I’d like to get started on it.”

“You think.” He took her hand. “You need to be more certain than that.”

“Sorry.” She took a deep breath. “Yes. I want to start on the belt today.”

He let go of her hand and sat back, his arms folded across his belly like he was warding off a blow. “All right. So tell me that you want to do this.”

“I…. Jesus, David, do I need to say this every time?”

“I need to hear it. Sarah… please. This is fucked up enough as it is. I can’t do it if — ”

She touched his knee. “Okay. It’s okay.” She folded her hands neatly in her lap, and spoke again..

“I want to do this. I am choosing to do this. And I know that I can stop it, any time I need to.”

“And why do you want to do it?”

“I want to deal with what happened. I want to feel like I have some control over it. I want to move on.” Her practiced voice began to wobble. “And… I want to get off. God help me, but this gets me off.”

“Yeah, I know.” He grinned weakly. “Me too. Fucked up, isn’t it? Let’s get started.”

He stood up.

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"God help me, but this gets me off": Excerpt from "Bending: Dirty Kinky Stories About Pain, Power, Religion, Unicorns, & More"
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4 thoughts on “"God help me, but this gets me off": Excerpt from "Bending: Dirty Kinky Stories About Pain, Power, Religion, Unicorns, & More"

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    I’ve done heavier forms of Bondage and Discipline, but mild forms of Dominance and Submission, and milder forms of Sadism-Masochism, from the BDSM phrase. I’ve never been to a dungeon though, I doubt I could ever trust people enough to do that. Every time I thought about it I would get an anxiety attack. One on one though, I can do, sort of. Some things anyway. I’m pretty weak I have to admit, whether sub or dom. I doubt I would ever have anything of potence I could brag about. I just focus on how it makes me feel I guess, same as everyone else.

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    Also, I updated the grammar on my erotic poetry, so here it is again:
    http://sweetlovingvampryss.blogspot.com/2013/04/contemplation-erotic-story.html

    I was almost asleep when I woke that, sort of half awake, because I literally wokeup, zombie walked to the computer, typed it out, and published it. Because it was conceived in a half waking state where I was in an inbetween trance stance state.

    The correct grammar form is way better lol. I didn’t even think I had bad grammar when I published it because I wasn’t thinking clearly, lol.

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    “God help me, but this gets me off” I’m pretty sure I may have said these exact words on more than one occasion. I’ve done quite a bit of heavier BDSM play (all in the SM area, D/s isn’t my thing) and the things that get me off are sometimes disturbing even to me and I’m the one who does them. Why the hell do I get off on having needles shoved through my skin, being caned or whipped to the point of broken skin? How did those wires between pain and pleasure get so crossed? Most of my play doesn’t even involve sex (the whip top I play with is a gay man while I’m not either) which confuses some people even more.

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